Well......
Tired like hell as usual.
Risk bledy hurts because I got into a fight yesterday with someone, not going to say who. He ( or she ) used a photo frame to hit me. like WTF =.=
I only did a tombstone piledriver to him ( or her ) =.=

So today had NCC, barely had a break from school since Sir Khalil need me to help him.
My friends got promoted to corporal today, congrats.
Now I know how it feels to see someone from your platoon getting promoted without you.
Well..... I have a new experience :)

Gotta make sure I get 2nd Seargent, wont be easy, but I can get it.
It involves memorising and revising , Im excellent at that.

Studies been okay...... Need to study more, DEFINITELY.
TIRED.... TIRED.... TIRED....
Sleep early, still cant wake up... =.=

Sir khalil talk talk to me and danial after training until almost 8..
Just finish sending him relevant documents for the PartA camp...
Hope he'll be okay with it..

Nothing else to post...
Good Night bitches :D ( and Bastards )

WTF????!!!!!!!

Why am I always getting sick????
I did'nt come to school for like 3 times this year....
I had high fever since wednesday, then yesterday i fever still stubborn want to go school.
Then, it became worst...
DAM IT Laaa!!
Now so boring at home don't know what to do....

Today actually I did'nt want to post , but they say talking ( or blogging )
Makes you feel better....
Today Had specialist school as usual , finished about 6+ .
Everything was going well and quite good.
Just as I was about to leave Sir ( Don't want to mention names ) asked me to stay behind and he wanted to talk to me.
So I was like .. OK... I did'nt do anything wrong...
So he starts off by saying that like , I can really think and use my brains and its very good and all.
Then he starts saying that, I can only think, I cant execute anything....
And he asks me what do I think my problem was....
I just quiet....
He said , you are blur... You are always not aware of what is happening... You don't have good attitude...
your personality is only average....
Then he starts saying, I'm not saying that you're not a good leader... Youre a very good leader, alot of potential.
But you have to make a great leap to become the top...
Put in more effort.....

I was just thinking....
Since part A I always put in effort in NCC , I always come for trainings.....
I know I'm not perfect, I know maybe I'm not the best....
But since I was Part A, I was always waiting for a chance to show all of you that I'm capable of being a good leader.
After three years I finally got to become to 2IC for the Part A camp, and when he said , He'll be deciding whther I should continue being the 2IC this friday, I felt like crying .... SERIOUSELY...... Thank you friends, comforting me...
Maybe you guys think I have a great personality and I'm a good person.
But he's the Sir , and what he says go... Right or Wrong.....
Yes I know I'm blur, I did'nt ask to be blur okay?
I did not just give up...
I always put in effort and tried my best....
I respect your decision and I take what you say to be a learning point for me...
But its just very disheartening and saddening for me...
If only you knew how much effort I put in , just for NCC.
Well.... Theres nothing I can do... If I'm meant to be the 2IC , then I will be...
If I'm not then... Maybe there's a reason...
Whatever the case, I will TRY MY BEST THIS FRIDAY....
BECAUSE......... I am Nat
I am not a blur boy
I am a good leader
I am a good student
I AM A GOOD PERSON

Life has been very exciting for me recently.
Alot of good things happened :)
I have been studying and revising Additional Maths with my dad this weekend.
I am proud to say that , I can most of the questions in the textbook for Surds, Indices and Logarithms, and also the Alpha and Beta chapter ( Cant remember whats the name of that topic, lols )
Also, I found out that I would be the 2IC for the Part A NCC camp this june.
Haiqal is OIC.
Melvin will be one of the logistics member, Kian Tiong will be PC of one the platoons and Chris is one of the APCs.
I just finished sending Sir Khalil some of the necessary stuff for the Part A camp.
So Im hoping to get a positive response from him.

Well, nobodies life is perfect , so when good stuff happens, there is also bound to be bad stuff going to happen.
Two days ago my phone suddenly spoiled. Like WTH! All of the sudden =.="
However I went to the shop near my house to repair it. Costed $60 .
Wasted ......
But anyway, my phone is okay already, and I'm happy once again :)

I am really happy to say that my life is close to becoming perfect already, LOLS . ( Show-off haha.)

Till I collapse I’m spilling these raps long as you feel em
Till the day that I drop you'll never say that I'm not killing them
Cause when I am not then I am stop pinning them
And I am not hip-hop and I’m just not Eminem.

Till the roof comes off, till the lights go out
Till my legs give out, can’t shut my mouth.
Till the smoke clears out - am I high? Perhaps
I'ma rip this shit till my bone collapse.
Till the roof comes off, till the lights go out
Till my legs give out, can’t shut my mouth.
Till the smoke clears out and my high burn out
I'ma rip this shit till my bone collapse.

Very sick today. I did'nt go school today.
Later going to go see doctor and take MC.
At least can finish doing all the holiday homework that I have have'nt done yet.
Currently just fb-ing and messaging with best Friend. For all my closests friends, you should know who. Just very boring here... alone at home...
Now have'nt even bathe yet, just woke up and started using the computer.
Nothing much else to say...

Back from part B camp.
It was quite okay. Except for the fact that some of the Part Bs just won't listen and treat you badly and take advantage of you just because you treat them nicely.
But there were some good guys too though.
The part Ds screwed up alot in this camp causing alot of the things that they planned to do to be delayed.
This also gave more work for us Part Cs.
Stressful camp finally over.
Can finally rest a little.
Very tired so this the end of post.

A very tiring week just passed. I must say I'm very disapointed at the same time very happy.
Disapointed because I just seen all my CA1 results.
English not too sure...
Elementary maths, A1
Additional Maths, C5..........
Combined Science(Physics/Chem), B3........
Biology...C6....
Rest all don't quite know.
But its very sad. My biology supposed to be very good..
Nevermine...
I will work hard for the term ahead and ace my mid-year exams..
I Swear!!!

Nest week going to be very tiring as well.
Next weddnesday to friday going to have secondary three camp.
Then straight after that, going to have NCC part B camp from saturday to the following monday..
Not really very sure if I can handle it, but I will have my best buddies, Lester, Danial Israwi, Kian Tiong, Aidil and Jazli.
Hope it turns out well!! =)

* I took out this part because it was fake information that made me angry at Lester , its all over now. It was just a misunderstanding . Thank everyone for their concern*

This week quite fun, friday had NCC , hand in Dad's payslip and a copy of my passport to Mr Aidil for the Lombok trip . Can't wait >.<
Went home with Ika and Kian Tiong, very late reached home, About 8+.
Additional Maths test was seriousely TOO difficult, half way throught the test I just closed the booklet and gave up. =.=
Elementary Maths paper was completely different, very very very easy LOLs.

Currently just planning the RO for NCC . Don't really know what else the others want , so I'll be asking Kian Tiong soon. Hope to show Sir Khalil the completed RO from now till March by this coming friday.

Exhausted!!
Today was very very tiring and to top it off had NCC specialist school until like 5+
After eating and all that, went home with Zhen Xin, Kian tiong and Ika.
Tommorrow is guaranteed to be extremely tiring.
Going to have a social studies test and a Biology test.
The day after tommorrow?
Also going to be stressful .
Going to have Additional Maths and Elementary Maths test.

UHHHH!!!!
So stress already....
Start of the year already so many tests, it like everday theres a test thats going to be in CA1.
I guess thats sec3 life, especially if you're taking pure science....
Better get used to it already LOLS.

Today NCC very fun even though everyone very tired.
We keep making jokes and playing around with Sir Khalil.
Then after that he ask me, Lester, Kian Tiong and Razin (or Razan dunno lols never see face )
To plan the NCC trainings from now till June...
And have to do it by this coming friday.
Is'nt that fun?
Don't know what the F*** I'm supposed to do.

Very stressed now , so to relieve stress I'm just listening to emo songs lols.
Make me feel better because as most of you already know , I'm a saddist ( a little )
So it makes me happy .. LOLS

Nothing much more to say, so I guess this is the end of this post.

NCC today very fun haha.
Alot of good happened today and also some bad things happened..
Good things :

1 ) Made up with best friend =)

2 ) Got at least a pass in chemistry , 19/30 , not really good but okay luh.

3 ) NCC , go gym , now i very macho , lols, more macho then before haha

Bad things :

1 ) Drop a 5kg metal weight on my finger in the gym, freaking pain, finger blue black ....

2 ) Drills sucked like hell today ..



Overall very fun day indeed... Some of the things I can't say here cause its a little private..
Went home Kian Tiong just now.

Nothing else to say , so ...

... Good night people !! =)

Today got Elementary maths results. 25/30 . Not bad .. Could have done better though.
So far my results :

English : Haven't get back
Elementary Maths : 25 /30
Additional Maths : 20 /30
Malay : 36 /50
12 /20
8 /10

Chemistry : 15 /20
Elective Geogprahy : 17 /20
Social Studies : 8 /20 =(

So far thats all the test I've taken , results not too good so far.
Going to get back results for second chemistry test soon and also sitting for biology test and pysics test next week.
Hope can do well for it.

Anyway many people ask me why I am not caring about him anymore.
Well , I told you why already...
Don't judge me , Its just what I feel.
Tommorrow going to have NCC.
Things have really turned around in NCC, I must say.
I am starting to look forward to it LOLS
After almost two years in NCC.

Currently just chatting with friends on MSN.
After this post going to play L4D2, parents not at home haha, so secretly can play.
I very bad boy right? LOLS

Nothing really much to say now , so I guess , I'm going to end off here.
Btw please listen to the new song, its very nice
" Drop The World " By Lil wayne Ft. Eminem =)

Yesterday had cross country. Did'nt do so well .
Not really concerned about it cause its not really important.
What IS important is that yesterday my best friend's appeal to change class was accepted. Yup, welcome to 3E2, Kelvin!!
Pity him though.. The triple science books are like over $200 . Wasted, LOLS!
But nevermine, hes rich !
After Cross country yesterday went to watch eat at McDonalds with Kelvin , Zhen Xin, Melvin and Chris. After eating all of us went to watch movie, except for Melvin .
We went to watch Percy Jackson and the lightning theif. Damn funny and very random LOLS!
Went home with Zhen Xin at about 5 + reaching 6 .
Go home , so freaking bored... Now also so bored..

Anyway , Happy Valentines Day and Happy Chinese New Year to everyone and hope you all have a happy weekend!! =)

Today Had NCC , C and C test. Very fun as we all slacked and joked around.
But then we all got punished badly for it.
Sir Khalil, no mercy . LOLS.

Here comes the weekends...
Its gonna be soo boring, without all my buddies.
Today had NCC.
Only lasted till 4+ though, as there was parents-teacher meeting for sec 3s.
Don't know why in the world, they would want to have parent-teacher meeting at this time for, exams haven't even started.
After NCC, went to have dinner with Lester , Melvin and Chris.
Soon after that Lester, Melvin and Chris went home .
So I was stuck with those idiots in the pictures above..
We waited like three hours for the bus to come ( yes of course , its 963 )
Like finally a bus came, and good thing it was'nt crowded.
Play and joke on the bus like our fathers bus lols.
Damn fun!!!
Hope every week can be like this. =)

Truly a week full of surprises. So many good things happened. My life has really changed since 2010 began. I hope it remains like this throughout the year.
Last friday during NCC some of us had our promotion and we also got our IPPT test badges. As usual I got bronze while Melvin got silver . Nevermine, its okay. That silver badge is NICE dam IT!!!
I'll work hard this year to get it =)
Besides that , alot of my studies came around.

A wise old man said :

" When a group of friends are united , nothing in the world can separate them.
But when there is dislike among the group, they become like a time bomb .
Ticking and ticking...
Until it finally explodes... "

This current week of school, I finally understand what this meant..
I seriousely find you very very annoying.
And , yes you are my best friend , since the first week of school 3 years ago , in secondary one. But I'm sorry....
Things change and people change...

When I joke around and play with you , You become a " EMO "
When its time to be serious and study , you are so damn noisy and irritating.
If you think its funny and cute , YOU ARE DAMN WRONG !!
Just because a few girls laugh at it , does'nt mean its funny ok?
Because they only see it for awhile , I have been seeing it for so long.
I've matured already ok? I'm not the same person that slacks whole day like in secondary one.

GROW UP , KID!!

WHY???

Today, I lost one of my beloved classmates, even though I only knew her for a very short time, I and all of 3e2 will miss her dearly...
Why does bad things happen to such good people? I keep asking myself this question.
Its an unfortunate tragedy. Shes just so young, haven't even experience graduating or anything yet.
I really feel sorry for her family, fifteen years of bringing her up, all gone down the drain..
However unfortunate it is, I believe GOD wanted her back for a reason.
We can't question what GOD's will .
I wonder , if one of my best friends experienced the same fate, how would I take it?
I seriousely will miss her, shes the first girl in 3e2 to laugh at one of my sick jokes. She will definitely be remembered by everyone .
Life just has to move on.
Its the way things are....
And the way things have always been...
It was so sudden and so shocking...
What to do? The big boss on top called her back..
We can't question his authority...
Moral of the story?
Life is very fragile, we must always treasure it, no matter if the person is good or bad it's not for us to judge.
You never know what you have till its gone....

Today NCC more fun than usual . Better than last week. From now on have to go for NCC on wednesdays too.. No damn time to sudy.... Nvm , I will find a time..
Today, the so called " Specialist School " was fun lols. Keep playing and joking with Lester..
Aim for Specialist course :
2nd Seargent
Aim for NCC by end of Sec 4 :
Master seargent.

I know very far-fetched. For those of you that dont' know and are laughing at my aims,
You just dunno, I ACTUALLY put in EFFORT to make my drills perfect.
I know its funny but just give me a chance.

First week of school quite fun .
But can tell that this year's gonna be a very stressful year.
3E2 is a very big class. 44 people , 30+ girls , 10+ guys.
lols, gangbang hahaha!!
I'm really sorry fer disturbing you okay? you know who you are..
I guess, some people just don't like making new friends....
Thank you Nurai for cheering me up just now ah!! I really appreciate it.
And also I'm sorry about what I said just now , if I hurt you, I'm really really sorry.. Please forgive me k?