Hustle me if you can !!

Today actually I did'nt want to post , but they say talking ( or blogging )
Makes you feel better....
Today Had specialist school as usual , finished about 6+ .
Everything was going well and quite good.
Just as I was about to leave Sir ( Don't want to mention names ) asked me to stay behind and he wanted to talk to me.
So I was like .. OK... I did'nt do anything wrong...
So he starts off by saying that like , I can really think and use my brains and its very good and all.
Then he starts saying that, I can only think, I cant execute anything....
And he asks me what do I think my problem was....
I just quiet....
He said , you are blur... You are always not aware of what is happening... You don't have good attitude...
your personality is only average....
Then he starts saying, I'm not saying that you're not a good leader... Youre a very good leader, alot of potential.
But you have to make a great leap to become the top...
Put in more effort.....

I was just thinking....
Since part A I always put in effort in NCC , I always come for trainings.....
I know I'm not perfect, I know maybe I'm not the best....
But since I was Part A, I was always waiting for a chance to show all of you that I'm capable of being a good leader.
After three years I finally got to become to 2IC for the Part A camp, and when he said , He'll be deciding whther I should continue being the 2IC this friday, I felt like crying .... SERIOUSELY...... Thank you friends, comforting me...
Maybe you guys think I have a great personality and I'm a good person.
But he's the Sir , and what he says go... Right or Wrong.....
Yes I know I'm blur, I did'nt ask to be blur okay?
I did not just give up...
I always put in effort and tried my best....
I respect your decision and I take what you say to be a learning point for me...
But its just very disheartening and saddening for me...
If only you knew how much effort I put in , just for NCC.
Well.... Theres nothing I can do... If I'm meant to be the 2IC , then I will be...
If I'm not then... Maybe there's a reason...
Whatever the case, I will TRY MY BEST THIS FRIDAY....
BECAUSE......... I am Nat
I am not a blur boy
I am a good leader
I am a good student
I AM A GOOD PERSON